“ALL”
After my mother made her best effort to kill me, it was obvious that my living situation, which was already far less than tenable, was no longer an option. It was time to flee.
Without offering the details on how it was executed, it was all on the Down Low, I put together a few things that I needed, procured a job in Chicago (900 miles away), chose the day that I would leave, and on that day, walked out the door, never to return.
I knew I needed help, and as quickly as possible. I had procured a job as a nurse, and the only thing that I was waiting for in the hospital orientation program was the information pertaining to the EAP (Employee Assistance Program). As soon as I had the number, I reached out for help, and was given the gift of a therapist who taught me THE most important lesson of my life.
My mother had a “thing” about the laundry. No matter what, after what was then a lifetime of trying, was I capable of doing it right. I could not wash correctly. I could not hang the clothes on the line correctly, I could not iron correctly. I could not fold correctly. Of course, I was always assigned this task. I would hold the dread in my chest and stomach waiting for the assessment that was inevitably delivered, every time. It made me have an aversive reaction to the laundry detergent “Wisk.” Every time I saw a bottle of “Wisk,” my soul would cringe.
I shared this experience with my therapist. Her response was, “Don’t buy “Wisk,” buy “All.”
….Click!…
The light turned ON…like a beacon…
OLD TEMPLATES
When we use old templates, molded and formed, from Past experience, we utterly deny our SELF, the opportunity to create a completely different experience in the Present and the Future. We deny our SELF '“All” of the POSSIBILITIES that lie before us in the Present, and the Future.
We can CHANGE our reality!
My reality changed the first time I purchased “all.” There was no going back.
It was Radical Change.
It was the first moment that I understood, with complete clarity, that I had both the FREEDOM and the POWER to live life another way - a different way.
It was the first time that an inkling of understanding started to rise in my mind, that I was not beholden to my past!
CONDITIONED BELIEF
We get what we EXPECT!
I had a recent client who stated that they “dread every Tuesday.” When asked why they dreaded every Tuesday, they stated, “because every Tuesday is always a bad day.” This is Conditioned Belief. They had a couple of bad days on a Tuesday, and now expects every Tuesday to be a bad day, and guess what?…it is.
They were using the old template (Conditioned Belief) to live in the Present and the Future.
After introducing the practice of shifting from Expectation to Intention to them, and reviewing it with their therapist as well, so she could reinforce it, the client decided (chose) to give it a try. Guess what? They stopped having bad Tuesdays.
They used a NEW TEMPLATE and changed their reality.
They were living a life beholden to their past. The day that they chose NOT to be beholden to their past, was the day that they changed the trajectory of their life.
PAST & PRESENT/EXTERNAL & INTERNAL
Expectations come from PAST lived experience. Expectations are Conditioned Beliefs. Expectations are PAST perceptions that were formed from experience, and are now used as pattern/template to judge the current or future experience. Expectations are living from the Outside In. (ie. This always happens when I do that. That always happens when I do this.) You are looking at the External experience, and anticipating (using the old template) what effect it will have on you. Expectations are living in the PAST, and living Outside of your SELF.
Intentions have NO PAST EXPERIENCE. Intentions are fresh and new, open and unrestricted. Intentions are created Internally. Intention is living from the Inside Out. Intention is NEW possibility created in the PRESENT. Intentions are LIVING in the PRESENT, Inside of your SELF.
NEW TEMPLATES
When I purchased “all,” it was my first use of a NEW TEMPLATE. I intended to make new choices, just for my SELF. Choices that met my needs. Choices that felt positive and good. I intended not to live in my past. It was my intention to live differently - even if I did not understand that perfectly at the time.
Living a life with Intention is a life without Efforting, without persistent disappointment, without being driven around and controlled by your past. It is a life with you at the wheel, choosing your direction, and your reality.
Intentions release the bonds of the past!
Living a life with Intention is never using the Past as Template for the Present and the Future. It is the creation of a NEW TEMPLATE. It is opening the door to All possibility that exists in front of you today, and is endless for tomorrow. This is where YOU release your SELF from the Past. This is where YOU begin to procure your freedom…Psychological Freedom…
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